Confusion.

So i'm confused.

có 1 người, người này đẹp và vui vẻ nhưng confusing.

Tôi ko biết làm gì.

There are so many signs which point towards it being a good thing, there are many signs pointing towards something good. Often things seem good between us, often it seems like we could have something more; there is always something holding người này back. This causes many problems. Some problems are obvious, when we seem to be getting closer or to be making progress người này seems to pull back. Người này seems to find it difficult to be bên tôi.

The other thing which is worrying me is that người này has been secretive and weird lately. I worry because it feels like there is more distance coming between us. This is something I don't want. It feels lke I have worked so hard to close that distance and to see more coming between us is hard for me. I'm a person who likes to deal with problems head on to confront them as soon as they appear. It makes me feel much better to deal with things rather than to pretend there is nothing there.

Though recently it has seemed I am the one making the effort and she is getting further and further because I am often pushing her into saying things / making decisions and answering. Now when i send her texts she hasn't been replying, or not replying for a long time. This obviously makes me feel more concerned because we're walking a thin line as it is.

Anyway. I have no idea what is going to happen. The future holds many surprises and who knows whether i'll be surprised...

6 months in Vietnam

Beginnings...

This is a beginning.

Now we have that out of the way, I think explaining the choice of blog name seems like a good starting point. John Milton wrote Paradise Lost in 1667, followed by Paradise Regained in 1671. Paradise Lost told the story of the fall of man, succumbing to temptation, only gaining salvation through Jesus' sacrifice (Which concludes Paradise Regained). Milton used this as a symbol for man, and humanity, showing how we are promised Paradise in heaven through Jesus' sacrifice. Bare with me, I'm getting to the point...Now my Paradise To-Be-Gained is different - I haven't fell, neither have I received my promise of paradise (earthly of course). This will be my journey through life, my falls, and my moments of paradise. Oh, and the Miltonic overtone is meant to give a hint that I'll be dealing with literature, and my journey trying to break into teaching.

Most posts end with a sign off, or an ending. What makes this impossible is that I'm at the start, this is a beginning.